a Kind of feeling

Gray, 9th - Jackson, CA
I’ve felt something like love
The kind that makes you feel hopeful
The kind that keeps you up at night
For one more word

I’ve felt something like heartbreak 
The kind that comes after the loss
The kind that hurts at random moments
Like broken glass in the chest

I’ve felt something like pain
The kind you feel when nobody likes you
The kind that shuts you up
Wondering why

Why wasn’t I enough?
Why didn’t I deserve an explanation?
Why won’t this sharpness in my chest
let me breathe
And when do the tears stop flowing 
So easily
Over a kind of feeling