a Debt

Anonymous, 9th - Oakland, CA
Not having enough money and wanting to save your beloved friend. A debt. I won’t be able to save her while she departs from me. A debt. The feeling you want to run towards the nurses and snatch her away from them. A debt. Escape from the vet, running away with her. A debt. Money, Money, they ask me if they want me to save her. A debt. “ Surgery, Surgery, If you want to save her, she will go through two surgeries”.

A debt. Back home, she would follow me everywhere, I would go to my sister to see her and play with her. A debt. I would sneak her into my room, place her next to me and cuddle with her. Or she would visit me when I woke up I would see her next to me asleep. Inviting herself on my bed made me feel happy. I wrap my arms around her, as she was so warm it made my heart warm. A debt.

She whines, in pain as the anesthesia is wearing off, “ It’s time” The veterinarian says. A debt. Hearing her whines, now she feels the needle on her leg, how painful it would feel for her that she doesn’t know what is going on. A debt. The doctor, inserting the liquid. A debt. In front of me. A debt. Eyes grew wide as she inserted all the liquid inside, looking back at her. A debt. I couldn't breathe, my chest was too tight. A debt. She moved towards her checking her heart. A debt. “ She’s gone”. A debt. I won't ever see you again, never play with you, never sleep with you, never run with you.

A debt. I need to pay to see you one more time.

If it’s possible I’ll go back in time and heal you.

Loosing you, how much it broke me taking them away from us.
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A debt.